Boohoohoo! Its really confirmed that marcus & the girl are tgt. Im sad but yet i have no tears for him anymore. I told him i`ve got no feelings for him anymore, but only fools would believe tht. Hahs.. Now, i`m at a lost, dunno if i should look for another guy or just wait for him. I dunno why, but i gotta feeling tht he & tht girl wouldnt last. Not that im being sucha fucker or wad, but i got a feeling tht someday, he`ll come to realise that sammie is the girl that loves him the most.

Firstly, when i asked him why he said we still cld be frens and he dont reply my msges, he said he was lazy, den i asked.. ' So i dont mean anything to you?' den he said i do mean smth to him. I really dont know luhs. I dont know if he still loves me anot. If he does love me and he truly likes the girl, i really pity the girl bcos its so unfair to her, but still, i dnt know if he still loves me. -.-". Dangggg~ Maybe we being friends would be better, but i dont mind if he still wants me back too. Hahs. Sounds so despo eh? Somehow, i also feel that he is lying to me about the girl, everything he says just doesnt sound true. I asked him back for the tortoise i gave him, he said he didnt wanna give it back to me, but i forced him to, so im gonna get it back. It`ll probably end up in the trash. Siann. Fuck lahh. I dont know what is happening now... everything is going so fast. Oh, and i`ve lost 4kg in just 4 days, li hai ba? I think if i go on like this, i can lose many many weight! Tahaha. But my boobs have shrunk, thts oh-so-sad! ;( And im bcuming so chinese ching chong, i dunno why i keep speaking chinese this few days. Hahs.. My friends haf said that i look very qiao cui ( haggard ), is it? Haha. I`m like fucking rich now, bcos i dont eat, i can save so much money plus i stil have $400++ in my little box. One day, i shall deposit it in the 'tee-tee-tee' machine but i dont know how bcos everytime, when i go and tee money out, marcus will be the one telling me which button to press. Haha, im sucha sua guuuuuuu. >.<

I know this saying, that 'time will heal all wounds' but im so hurt right down to the smallest part of me which are my nipples. Haha. I always pretend im okay but actually im not. I actually got many things to confess to marcus, but i keep forgetting what is it. So when he asks me, i only can say one and forget the other one. Lols.. And im talking to this guy on MSN, he says i look 18-19 yrs old, (o.O) HUH! So old.. Sammie likes to look like a lil girl so many pple will wanna take care of her! Haha.. no lahs, i just joking. Anyways, i`ll just take this time to expand my circle of friends bah~ SO ANYONE WANNA BE MY FRIEND PLS CALL 9681****! LOL.

Okay, the screws in my brain is getting a lil loose alrdy. Maybe i`ll go to my sis pub tml and drown my sorrows while all the happy couples out there are celebrating valentine`s day! Teeheehee. Alrights, im gonna stop here now.

Sammie is a strong girl, NAGA RAJA! ;D Bye bye